Today is a new begining....

WELCOME!!! Today starts my....*gulp* weight-loss/healthy living.

I made my plan. My incentives. My goals. My "rules" And I plan on using this platform to write all about it. In the process to prepare I actually stumbled across an interesting book. After reading the Twilight Series (all four books) in record time.... Well, I needed to find something to read that would make me a little less obsessed? So I went to Target and looked for something that might catch my attention. My husband pointed out a few. I personally love memoirs, diaries, biographies. So anyway, I stumbled across this book and the words "Pretty Fat" jumped out at me. I picked it up and found my book for the next couple days..lol. No actually I'm going to take my time with this one. I have a 2-3 chapter max each day so I won't sail thru these. Okay so the book.. The whole title (and take a break if you need to) is : One Narcissist's Quest to Discover If Her Life Makes Her Ass Look Big, Such A Pretty Fat Seriously, Another Memoirs or Why Pie Is Not The Answer By Jen Lancaster... Okay. A mouthful..lol.

As of today I am on Chapter 5 - Lookin' good and feelin' fine? Not so much

I am 95% like Jen. Only difference is:
- I don't drink
- I don't really cuss, or at least as much as her.
- And I have never really been narcissistic.

Narcissism describes the trait of excessive self-love based on self-image or ego, as well as lack of empathy for others.

But, other then those few things. I am pretty much a carbon copy of Jen Lancaster. As I am sure I am not alone. She has a few books so I don't want to jump the gun just yet.

Reading this book is opening my eyes to the way I act. Not sure if I really want to act that way I have decided to make a change. Hence, the healthy decision I have decided to map out and follow. My goals:

Realistic- 150-ish
I'm not going to cut my hair until I get there. And I am going to reward myself in other ways but those are kinda personal. Also, I plan to make it all the way this time. I went on Weight Watchers a few years ago. I did very well but got sick of going to those meetings. I know they have them online now but really. I want to do this on my own for once without outside help. I want to prove to myself that I am strong enough to pull through.


As of today I am on the right track. Another reason why I decided to do this no rather then later is the fact that by then end of this Month I am going to be taking College classes in prep to get my BHS (Bachelor of Human Services). It's going to take a total of 4 years to work on this degree. I am also in the final stages of getting a position at City Center. My schooling starts the end of this Month and if I get the position it should start a little after that.

What does this mean? Well, now I need to have a plan. I need more energy. And you know that just doesn't come out of thin air..So what should I do? Well, my first thought was, go with the flow. Energy will build up once I get used to the demand. Then I thought. "No, I need a different route". In the past I have been optimistic with a good foot forward. Just to have it all go down in flames. I am taking a different approach this time.

Like any athlete (although I wouldn't really put myself in the same category) but everyone prepares for their "big event". They stretch, workout, run, jog, prepare. So that's how I am looking at it. I am "preparing". For what? Well, number one on my list is fatigue, secondly I want to be able to keep up. I want to pull ahead. I want to....Win.

Enough ranting for today. I have given you the jest of it all. I'll type out my plan tomorrow. It's in my journal.

So far today I have done well. But doesn't everyone do well on the first day??

Back to my reading and planning.